Mouj Abduljalil PBP

Work

Work

I work as a computer engineering student to further my knowledge and interest in the different aspects in computers, which is divided into hardware and software. My interest is heavily on software, however, to broaden my vision in all aspect of computers I have taken the hardware aspect as a major and the software aspect as a concentration. I assess work at 70% as I give my best but not my all as to not burn myself out and to not lose my interest in it.

Play

Reading is an activity that brings me immense joy and relief as through the stories of life whether fiction or nonfiction I immerse myself and forget my surroundings. Through it I see myself in every character and obstacle and through it I glue myself back together, additionally visual stories, dramas and crocheting at the same time, also give me joy as they make me laugh and cry with them while keeping my hands busy and productive. Which is unlike life which does not give you time to deal with its surprises, I assess play at 80-85% as it is how I deal with stress, I deal with my mental health by myself through my hobbies through which they allow me to unravel my thoughts and demons and work through or beat them down and to continue skipping through life and sometimes running as fast as I can or even taking a short stop to admire the surrounding views and to continue skipping along.

Play

Love

Love

I give the love dashboard a 100% as family love matter to me the most, this source of love is a major part that has built me and shaped my personality and gives me the strength to go through life. I thrive with it, if it goes through hardships I strive to build it back in a stronger and better home, I will learn and change myself for the better and heal with my family with it. That is why I give my utter all to family, as relationships are what last the most and till the end. Following that love is friendship love, through that love I relate to others and reflect how my friends are a source of inspiration and role models for me to follow in their advice.

Health

Health

I give my health a 73%, as work heavily affects my health negatively whereas love and play positively affects it. My emotional health is basically a ride in a never ending roller coaster, I feel way too much and I relate and feel for others way more than necessary, it is part of me, and I accept and live with it. My mental health deteriorates with work stress and family stress and pain, however, I deal with it the best through working through it by myself while relieving my stress through reading, watching dramas and crocheting which gives me time to unravel the thorns that are piercing me. My physical health is connected to my mental health, when my mental health goes down my physical health comes to a stop as well, however, when I get a boost from family and their love this motivates me to take care of my physical health which in turn boosts my mental health as well.

Work View

Work View

Work is a means to live through life with a career that interests me and no matter the hardships that it gives me, I in the end will not detest the work itself, as the career that I chose is not what I love the most but what interests me the second most. In this way my career will not infest hatred toward it in its pursuit and in which I would be able to accept others interference and advice more readily than if it was what I would love to pursue the most which is languages. I shall keep my love for languages as a hobby and will not make it my career as to not lose my infatuation in it. I do not work as my main focus of life, it is but a means to continue living and explore life.

Life View

Life View

What matters most to me are relationships and stories of the people in this world. I value life stories and experiences and through those I build my life. I keep what I love most as a hobby and what interests me as a career, family relations matters to me the most, if family falters or is suffering, I would gladly sacrifice my work and would feel no regret. relationships are what last and what follow you through life, not CV’s or certificates, they help, but they wont matter much in the end.

Coherency

In the end, how I approach life dictates how I approach work. They complement each other when my work view increases the relations that I develop in work which in turn builds a stronger value in my work. Whereas as my view in life broadens, it in turn could flip the way I approach my work 180 degrees. This is where they clash in which my life view is superior to my work aspects.

Coherency

Good Time Journal

Good Time Journal

Reflection

Reflection

Throughout recording the Good time Journal, I realized that no matter the activity, whether work, reading, resting by crocheting and watching drama, or shopping, I generally had a great deal of engagement, however, at the end of the day after working or shopping or even interacting with people it would turn into immense exhaustion and I would experience a burn out effect that would bleed into the next days activity. On the other hand after crocheting or reading I would feel extra energy and motivation to work more that would also carry on to the next day. What surprised me the most was the level of concentration I kept when working and the productivity of my days and a welcome surprise was when I designed the website project, despite the faults and errors that I kept on encountering it was very entertaining and I kept a positive energy through the days I worked on it, which is unlike any feelings I had when working on other projects and reports.

What you already have in mind

Life One

What you’d do if life one was no longer an option

Life Two

What you’d do if money and image were no object

Life Three

Mother: From her, I want to absorb her optimism and unlimited thirst for knowledge and see life through its beauty.

First Person

She is my mother, a dreamer, a reader, a writer, a mathematics teacher, has a master's in family science, has a bachelor's in mathematics, and taught high school students. A calligraphist, an author, a painter, an adviser for us all, the one who is always there, the one we always trust, an optimist, a strong woman. She has fought and is still fighting through life’s miseries with a smile and no matter the suffering, pain, betrayal, and as she calls it her challenges in this life, would get back up and give a smile to us and say life is hard but we are always stronger. Through her, I learned that nothing is more important than learning and always seeking more knowledge. Want to learn something new? She would say nothing is stopping you, do it and no matter the obstacles strive forward. And if there are setbacks that push you back or force you to change your goals or way, strive forward, for there is no other way but forward no matter the turns.

Younger sister : From her, I want to gain her strength, her assertiveness, her confidence, and her strong gaze and steps toward her goals.

Second Person

My younger sister, a high school senior who is aspiring to be a paediatrics doctor, is 5 years younger than me, but I always feel through her words is 5 years wiser than me. From here I learn and strive for creativity, for her I feel proud, from her I seek to better myself to be worthy of being her older sister. From her list of books, I add one more book to reach her list of books that have widened her knowledge and perspective of this world. She is a girl, but a young woman with wisdom that leaves me speechless and in awe when I seek her guidance or when she hears my hardships. She was innocent as a child, however, other children did not protect her and tried to break her, but she did. But she cried, fought, cried again, and got back stronger and fought harder and to this day I feel for her and am in pain because of her pain yet ultimately proud of her strength.

Older Brother: From him, I want to learn how to care for myself, from him I want to learn how to put myself, my health, and my joy in the forefront and to never look down on myself, my choices do not define me, they shape a better me.

Third Person

- My older brother, he who I was so close to that I would imitate his every step and move. We drifted apart and have a distance from life and the obstacles that she has thrown in his way. Despite that distance, I trust him, I can see how he has picked himself up from the rubble that life had broken down on top of him. I saw him pick every stone and built himself a bridge to get out of that hole. A high school student that taught himself how to be independent, taught himself how to cook, how to take care of his health, and as an engineering high school graduate taught himself science subjects in a few months and entered a university as a medical student and is graduating this year as a Doctor. He made a choice, walked through it, and found that he changed and that the road he was on no longer leads to what he wanted, despite that he did not falter and found his new goal and built his road and walked through its bumps and turns. It most definitely was not a linear path.