Sylvia Plath "The Fig Tree"
...connection
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”
So which fig do we pick?
We pick as many figs as we can carry. We taste them all, and we decide which fig we like. Because the worst things about living in uncertainty and doubt is that we will never know what could have been.
Today
...The Fig Tree
Decisions are inevitable, we can ignore them and avoid them but ultimately we are forced to make decisions. As high school seniors, we must decide whether we will attend a four year university,technical school or just work. These decisions are so life altering that they cause great stress and anguish over our shoulders. Like Plath's fig tree, we are ["branched"] out with an infinite amount of possibilities, but we are also presented with family expectations, teachers expectations, our friends, and our own expectations making our decisions harder to make. The uncertainty of what we aspire to be, for ourselves and for others makes it seem like our time is up, and our [figs turn black and fall], collapsing.
“I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”
During Plath's Time
Sylvia Plath wrote "The Bell Jar" under the pseudonym "Victoria Lucas", this is an excerpt from her novel "The Bell Jar". A month after the first publication Sylvia Plath committed suicide.