A specific band that I have found solace and hope in is twenty one pilots. This band is more special to me than I could ever put into words and in order to fully understand them you would have to both take a close look at their lyrics and go see one of their live shows. They have released four albums, only two official ones however, that are jam packed with the most introspective, thought-provoking words I have ever heard in my entire life. From songs like Car Radio that talk about the struggle with being alone with your thoughts to songs like Kitchen Sink that talk about finding purpose in creating something that only you understand they all discuss things more important than a crush or partying late at night. Even though those things are fun and no one should be shamed for liking songs that discuss them, these songs with darker subjects deserved to be talked about, but rarely, if ever, are. Twenty one pilots has created a community of people who you can connect with and care about on more than just a superficial level to the point where if I see someone wearing their shirt I can automatically go up and talk to them because I feel like we all share a basic understanding. They have helped me through some of the roughest points in my life, and I will always be grateful to them for that, but one thing I know for sure is that I will continue follow them in their career and go to their shows for as long as I’m alive because they provoke an emotional response from me that nothing and no one ever has before. I will continue to always and forever be passionate about their music, the way they interact with their fans, and the way they can put on the best live performance I’ve ever seen with only two people on the stage. They have helped me find purpose and I will share them with everyone I meet so maybe they can help them, too.
But to me fashion is my art. I love noticing the way people dress. You can tell a lot about a person by the way they dress. I think the most important thing to remember about fashion is to never judge someone by the way they dress. It's a form of art. It's a way to express yourself. There's a reason that athletes wear Nikes and hipsters wear Toms. They represent something they're passionate about. True, some people don't dress the way they wish they could, which is stupid because who cares what other people think? It's you, it's what you like and if other people can't understand that then they can screw off. You don't need someone in your life who will tear you down over a stupid pair of shoes. One last thing to remember is that socks with sandals don't ever look good ;)
I love entertaining people. I love planting a
little seed in the mind of each and every audience member, leaving them with a little morsel of truth or a little slice of an intimate, personal emotion. I've experienced a lot of amazing feelings in my days, but hearing an audience leave the theater singing songs that were just performed might just be the most amazing. Through just an hour or two of song and dance, I can create a living work of art that an audience can get lost in, and maybe even learn something from along the way. To think that my own thoughts and ideas, that live inside my head for so long and are suddenly brought to life under brights lights, can make other people feel something is the greatest feeling of all, and it's my first and only love.
My other passion is melting cheese on top of foods that don't require extra cheese.
I think that's why I am so weird because I try to make people laugh and make them feel better about themselves because when you smile and laugh with others you feel better about yourself and the people you are with and I believe that laughter and kindness can get you really far in life. Laughing till you cry is the greatest moment a person can have because it's the ability to do one thing so amazingly that it triggers another feeling that is so opposite of what you are feeling and it's the weirdest feeling ever because you have no idea what you are doing but it's enjoyable. So if you ever have that moment just remember you are so awesome at doing something that you literally physically can't handle how cool you are so you have to cope by triggering something else to help your body figure out what the heck you are doing! Anyways on a softer level, knowing that I have the ability to make someone smile really gets me through the day. I just watched a TED talk about having just a "single story" about someone or something in a culture and how we stereotype everything to make it more comprehensible, but a word of advice is to NEVER limit one person or one thing to only this single idea you have in your head. Be accepting not necessarily agree but just accept. (That was just a side note I thought was important haha)
Music made me realize that I wasn't alone in any way.
For once, I actually felt like I belonged somewhere. Music calmed me down when I was panicking. It made me happy and it made me feel like I mattered for once. Music managed to say the thoughts that I've never been able to put into my own words. I found more comfort in guitar riffs and beating drums than I did in actual human interaction. I was okay with that, though. Music was a better friend to me than a lot of my "friends" were.
During this time, I learned to be okay with being alone. I learned that it was okay to put yourself before others. I learned that it was okay to take some time off to take care of yourself. Being alone is different from being lonely. Learning to be alone and be okay with it is so important; it is so important to learn to love yourself and to be okay with who you are and what you have. It's okay to be alone. Learn to take care of yourself and love yourself first, and then things will start to fall into place. Music has helped me in so many ways that I can't even explain.
What makes me happy, what wakes me up in the morning; music. Lots of people say music is their passion, but I feel it so deeply sometimes it even hurts. Music is the one thing in my life that I know will be there always to keep my head above water, always being there, interpreting my exact feelings. When I say “sometimes it even hurts”, it can only be explained with comparing it to being in love. When you’re in love, and at times you miss them so much you can feel your bones ache and your heart start to sink to your stomach; that’s how I feel about music. Listening to an album or a new song that speaks to you so deeply and so eerily understanding that you tear up unknowingly and your heart aches, that’s what I feel. Time stops, worries vanish, and I am there, in the moment, watching an artist yell back at me the lyrics that saved my life. I am so grateful every day for what music has done for me. Music gives me an identity, it’s led me to social issues and awareness of movements happening right now that I may not have known about otherwise, and led me to realize what I want to do with my life when I get out of high school.
The very short answer for me is, I'm not that concerned with being "happy," which I believe anyone can do, as long as they don't care about anyone but themselves. I believe it's not all that hard to be "happy," and I don't strive for it. Rather, I'm concerned with being authentic to myself (for example, having the guts to be true to my ideals and heart, regardless of social approval or disapproval) while making an EQUAL amount of effort to observe what's normally called "The Golden Rule" (that is, always trying to get better at listening to my conscience and being more empathetic). I was fortunate to learn on my own at an early age (18) that materialism, blind patriotism, organized religion, and conformity/seeking status, all for their own sake, were a total waste of my time. This realization totally liberated me from a lot of social chains in our society, empowered me to pursue a very meaningful path, and has given me a sense of inner peace for a VERY long time. I feel blessed and grateful. My total commitment to these values has been scary at times and lonely at times, but totally worth it
What about me?
Everyone has something that they love and many people keep it to themselves or never get the opportunity to share it. These things are instrumental to the personalities and whole personas of individuals. We don’t get to appreciate one another like we should or even recognize one another for who we are.
You might be wondering about what I like, or not, that's cool, too.
Either way, I'm going to tell you.
youtubers inspire me
some include:
Vlogbrothers, JacksGap, FunForLouis, Will Darbyshire, DanTheDirector
I can always pick up video making, design, and photography in my spare time.Through talking with all of these different types of people I tended to turn around and ask myself that initial question regularly. What am I passionate about? It wasn't until the Yosemite trip did I kind of decide that I want to pursue more of a history and global studies path. We will see what goes from there...
"The world is our classroom"