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by eryn spooner1 view·Updated Jun 16, 2022
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  1. if I was given the chance to tell my younger self,
  2. one thing I never would have imagined it being that my love for dance would go away,
  3. dance was such a major part of my life that I never asked
  4. myself what if dance was no longer what I loved to do,
  5. Where did this thought even begin and why would it let it creep into my mind?
  6. I danced from when I was three years old to the age of 13.
  7. Throughout those 10 years I danced competitively with my friends,
  8. friends that I was able to grow up with and who eventually became my dance family.
  9. We attended competitions where we drove hours to and when we were not dancing,
  10. we were all hanging out laughing and making even more memories
  11. When you compete in dance competitions for almost 13 years,
  12. it becomes a part of who you are
  13. A constant routine and responsibility.
  14. However, some things just don't always go according to plan.
  15. When I was 13 years old, I no longer felt the same way I did about dance
  16. like I did for the last nine years.
  17. I will never forget the day when I pretended to
  18. be sick just to get our dance and go home.
  19. You might think it was a dancing, but in reality it was the environment at this point,
  20. my best friend was potentially leave leaving and as we got older,
  21. there was more drama and catty remarks between dancers than there was dancing.
  22. I got to the point where it no longer
  23. made me happy getting ready and showing up for dance
  24. for someone who grew up with dance, it was pretty hard admitting this to myself,
  25. you know that feeling when you try so hard not
  26. to cry that you can't do anything but cry.
  27. That's how I felt.
  28. This is the moment I realized that I no longer wanted to pursue dance any longer.
  29. Like I mentioned before growing up,
  30. dance was a major part of my life and coming to terms with
  31. the fact that you do not want to do dancing anymore is heartbreaking.
  32. It was heartbreaking because I still love to dance. I still love to dance to this day.
  33. However, at this point in my life, I guess it was what I needed.
  34. Just like the saying, everything happens for a reason.
  35. Happiness and choice,
  36. emotions such as happiness can have a powerful influence on choice.
  37. Everyone has to make their own decisions and sometimes
  38. those decisions have a big impact on your mental health
  39. though, it can be hard and a sad choice.
  40. We make these choices for our own good,
  41. to improve our happiness and better ourselves and that is what I did.
  42. The world we live in today is a crazy one.
  43. Even those who are perfectly fine with the way everything has turned out.
  44. No, there really isn't a solution to all the problems the world encounters.
  45. I believe in doing what is right because standing up
  46. for your beliefs is essential to our everyday conflicts.
  47. If you ask yourself, if you ask advice from other people,
  48. most would say just put your head down and blend
  49. into the crowd where where will we be today?
  50. It's great thinkers and those who stood up for others just blended in.
  51. At my previous job, I had been working there for about two years at the time.
  52. And to put it lightly,
  53. we as a community of workers,
  54. both students and some older men and women were not treated with the same respect.
  55. We give our managers and staff
  56. one time in particular,
  57. my good friend who worked at the department beside
  58. me was being mistreated on one of my shifts.
  59. I heard her manager say
  60. give her bad shifts so she will quit.
  61. This was not the first time I heard negative things
  62. being spoken about my friend and coworker behind her back.
  63. So I told my friend who had no idea this was happening and
  64. at this point I was done hearing all the negativity and childlike behavior,
  65. especially from employees who know better.
  66. I knew this wasn't right and although I was afraid to speak up, I did.
  67. I also supported my friend when she approached
  68. her manager manager to confirm her story.
  69. Not only have I done this,
  70. but I know who I know others who have stuck up for themselves or their friends
  71. and it takes courage and it's not easy to go up with go up to someone,
  72. especially when they have a higher position than you and call them out.
  73. If the same was done to me, I would want someone to stick up for me
  74. who is God. To me,
  75. God means many different things to many different people.
  76. There are a lot of people who believe that God
  77. is real believing and believe that he's all loving,
  78. all knowing and judging.
  79. There are a lot of people who believe that there's no such thing as a God and
  80. there are people who believe that there is no God because no one has ever seen him.
  81. I grew up in a catholic family when I was younger,
  82. we would always go to church every sunday with my nan
  83. to be honest, I never really liked going to church
  84. at first.
  85. It was because I was a kid and what kid wants to wake
  86. up early and go to church where you can't do anything but listen.
  87. However, as I grew up,
  88. I did not want to go anymore because I started to believe differently
  89. though,
  90. my parents never pushed me to believe one certain way
  91. because we grew up this way and we're in some way
  92. told to believe I on my own started to believe that there may not be a god.
  93. I began to have many intellectual questions about faith, such as if God is loving,
  94. why is there so much evil in the world if God created the world in six days?
  95. Liberal evolution in
  96. dinosaurs why would a good God send people to hell
  97. Palms 37 1 through six says open up before God keep
  98. nothing back and he'll do whatever needs to be done.
  99. This reminds me of the saying step back and enjoy the ride.
  100. This means that your life will be filled with unexpected,
  101. happy and scary experiences.
  102. If you just sit back and trust in God,
  103. some people think that it is God who is taking
  104. them on this journey and leading them down a path,
  105. but I'm not too sure this is, this is exactly what I believe.
  106. I would like to think that there is someone up there who is looking
  107. down on us and helping us achieve what we would like to achieve.
  108. But as I grow up and question my world, that belief in God is not there.
  109. I agree that everyone is allowed to believe what they want to,
  110. but sometimes beliefs change,
  111. everyone has anxiety, some can handle it better than others,
  112. but it's important to find ways to cope with it.
  113. I personally do not handle it very well.
  114. I tend to overthink situations over and over again.
  115. I think too much about past situations or in how I could or couldn't have done things.
  116. I tend to stress and worry about things months in advance and the list goes on and on
  117. dealing with anxiety is probably one of the worst things that I have to
  118. deal with and it can be hard for me to ask others for help.
  119. Like I said,
  120. I tend to worry about things months in advance
  121. when in reality there is no need to whatsoever.
  122. I once heard a quote that said,
  123. if you stress too much about something before it happens,
  124. you basically put yourself through twice.
  125. And this is something that I tend to remind myself
  126. in difficult situations,
  127. a difficult situation like what we were all going through at the moment,
  128. accepting programs and figuring out our first year and to put it lightly,
  129. it is such a stressful, stressful and annoying process.
  130. I already began to get anxious for what's about to
  131. come in four months at first I would like,
  132. I would keep my feelings to myself and try not to show my anxiety, which as we all know,
  133. it's very hard to do.
  134. However, over time with the help from others which include my mom, my dad,
  135. my friends and a therapist.
  136. I was able to learn about myself and how to deal with anxiety
  137. which has helped me focus on myself and grow as a person.
  138. One thing I do to keep myself
  139. to help myself is go to the gym with my sister,
  140. the chops relieve stress
  141. and it has become a daily routine of mine whenever I can,
  142. you might ask yourself, how does this have anything to do with
  143. my physical journey.
  144. While this may be a mental journey,
  145. it is also physical journey because of my anxiety, I had lost weight, can sleep,
  146. got massive headaches,
  147. etcetera.
  148. This is this has related to the six aspects of
  149. the south as it shows the importance of others.
  150. The importance of communication, the importance of having a direction in life,
  151. the importance of character in one's body,
  152. the importance of the development of one's
  153. conscience and their conscience as a whole.
  154. We view humans as individuals who have their own moral thoughts and bottles.
  155. But in the quote goes, it takes a village with help from others.
  156. We are able to become the best version
  157. of ourselves and gain more knowledge and understanding.
  158. There are 7.7 billion people in this world and
  159. not one person is exactly similar to one another.
  160. Each person has their own characteristics and persona.
  161. I am someone who works hard for what they want,
  162. even though my anxiety can get in the way.
  163. I'm someone who loves to dream big and live hard. I,
  164. I have traveled and I am still travel
  165. traveling through these journeys and I will learn
  166. even more about myself in the years to come.