Reflection 1

Hello everyone.

Um I hope this works.

This is my first attempt at making a Prezi Um

it's gonna be a little bit basic, but I like

the website, I like the technology, so I thought this

class would give me an opportunity, good opportunity to try

it out for myself.

Um So in a reflection of my apprenticeship of observation,

I went through a couple of phases.

Um the first is I was thinking about, well, what

are the kind of things that I actually admired about

the teachers that I think of, when I think of

who I observed?

Um that shaped me into the kind of person that

wanted to get into education.

Um and then after I did that, um I thought

that maybe I had the problem where I was focusing

too much on positive traits and not being aware of

what are some negative examples that would be smart for

me to avoid emulating, because it's enough to be aware

of the things you want to do and the kind

of person you want to be.

But I also thought it would be important to focus

on what you wouldn't want to be and to be

conscientious of that, so it could be avoided.

Um but then when I went back and I read

the requirements for the assignment, I felt like I wasn't

really getting in depth to what the question was really

asking, which is what are you actually doing?

Um to reflect on your apprenticeship of observation.

Um part of that is difficult for me because I'm

not currently practicing teacher, I'm not a practicing educator.

Um but I think there is something that I hit

on personally that I think is very important for me

to keep in mind, and it's something that I can

work on even outside of professional practice too.

That would help me reflect on my apprenticeship of observation.

Um so let's go through the first two quickly here.

Um, First was the things that I that I admired

in model teachers.

What kind of teacher would I want to model myself

after? Um, I thought about teachers that I had, um,

that made teaching fun or looked like they enjoyed doing

the job of teaching.

Um, and also teachers that treated me as a person

first and a student or subordinate second, and then teachers

that also demonstrated their own capacity for learning.

And in particular, this reminded me of a teacher that

I had, that made a big impact on me who

was a communication technology teacher.

Um, we did a lot of things with recording radio

shows and doing video editing and making uh, animations in

flash when that was a newer technology that people were

using. And I remember that teacher had a, an ability

to speak to us students as people and to talk

to us as almost kind of peers, um, and give

us a lot of just positive conversation to go along

with the actual work and instruction.

Um, and he seemed like he had a lot of

fun doing it.

I also remember a physics teacher who had a lot

of fun doing physics and there was a lot of

mix of not only math, but a lot of physical

examples of that math in action, a lot of physical

experimentation that wasn't really necessary, but it was very fun

and he always has a smile on his face when

he was doing those things.

Um and going back to my tech teacher uh demonstrating

a capacity for learning.

So part of that class that professor, pardon me, that

teacher was adopting new technologies around video editing and stuff.

And so part of one of my projects was to

use the video editor and the video editing software and

he was also new to it.

So it was very interesting getting that interaction with a

teacher Um who he himself wasn't 100% familiar with it,

so I could see learning in action whenever we were

interacting and those made very big positive impressions on me.

Um but also I said that I thought that maybe

I would have a habit of making an overemphasis on

thinking about uh positive observations about teachers, and I thought

it might be important to think about what I don't

want to emulate as much as what I would want

to emulate.

And this is because I thought of a science teacher

that I had that just hated her job.

She never really seemed to like talking with the students

outside of delivering direct instruction to us.

Um and she always seemed like she just really hated

being there was very frustrated and I remember that class

was very difficult and I had the same problem with

a lot of math teachers that were just very disengaged

a lot of delivering direct instruction.

Um and so for a bit I was thinking about

those examples, but then unfortunately I realized that I might

not be hitting on the important element of what we're

supposed to do for this assignment.

And so I went back and I thought what is

something that I should be working on now, that makes

sense that I can look back at my teachers and

kind of see that would help me reflect on my

teachers and give me a new perspective and this is

something I brought up in the first class that we

had for this course and that was my sense of

imposter syndrome.

Um I realized that when I was thinking of the

teachers that I was observing as models, What I was

thinking is that all of these teachers have an appearance

of hyper competency, like they're all really good at what

they did and they had this kind of knowledge and

perspective that I wouldn't be able to get myself.

Um I've got a graphic here.

Um this seemed to be a very common one online.

Um I put a link to where I got the

photo from here, but it kind of describes the situation

where if I see myself as a teacher and I

know I have this problem in a professional setting, it's

that even if I'm told I have the skills and

I demonstrate those skills, I always feel like there's a

difference between what I know and what everybody else knows,

And it's just a part of you knows, somebody is

just going to realize that I don't know something that

I should realize.

And then I remember the professor for this course saying,

you know, even after getting a PhD that he still

feels that sense of imposter syndrome.

And this is something that I've worked on for a

long time.

And in my reflection, I realized that it's something that

I'll have to work on in a professional setting as

an educator, but it's something that I can work on

now, even if I'm not a professional educator and that

is having a more positive and personally kind outlook on

my knowledge.

Um, and what I bring as a potential educator.

And then if I go back to any of the

other features.

So I talked about features that I admire in teachers.

Um, and the thing about those positive traits is there

not necessarily traits that you would have to have, even

if you were hyper competent, they seemed to be very

much outlook based all of those teachers were such that

it's a lot to do with their personality and their

outlook on being an educator and how they treat students.

And so a little bit further in my reflection, I

realized that that's what I really needed, and that's what

I really needed to get down to is understanding that

what I wanted to emulate what I was seeing in

those teachers and what I really resonated with was their

outlook as people and outlook as people in a certain

role and not necessarily them as um yeah, uh, encyclopedic

repositories for knowledge that delivers it to students in archetypal

ways and I think that's going to be very important.

So, if the assignment is asking, what work do I

need to do, so I can examine my own apprenticeship

of observation.

I think the answer that question is I need to

work on taking the things I learned about education about

motivation and synthesizing that with the idea that we are

all lifelong learners and in doing so, realizing that, you

know, this kind of idea of imposter syndrome is something

that while it's part of me, it's also something that

I need to recognize that other people in positions as

educators who are successful, who have interacted with have all

dealt with this feeling and that it's not necessarily about

being that idealistic pedestal of an idea that you have

a great teacher, but understanding that we are all people

that are continuously striving for something and what's really important

is our love for our students and our love for

ourselves as continual students.

And so that's what really stood out to me.

And I hope that is good for a reflection.

But I think that to me that seemed to be

the most important part that I took out of doing

this reflection.

So thank you and I hope to do more presses

in the future that use these functions a little bit

more. I think this is what I'm going to be

focusing on for the rest of this semester is getting

the most out of this kind of format, but doing

a lot more with it, and I'll be excited to

see how I developed that in the future.

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